Part 1: Thank you my friends!

My dear friends. Thank you for standing by me during the loneliest, deepest and darkest moments on my life these past few weeks.
Being unprepared, and being misunderstood are the 2 worst feelings in the whole wide world!
I told you guys I’ll be okay after 2 weeks.
2 weeks have passed and I’m not only okay.

I'm feeling great! ...Really!
My faith told me to endure 2 weeks.
And I have.

She was the reason for these 2 weeks.
She has helped me to keep my faith.
Without her, I wouldn’t have changed.
I wouldn't have found myself again! I wouldn’t have found my way.
I wouldn't be the person that I've always kept hidden inside me for so long.
I had kept my mind focused on the one thing that has been my drive all this while.
I'm glad I followed my heart my intuition.

I’ve found a reason to start over new.
My hope and dreams.
That source and cause of motivation and inspiration.
She is something that I cannot live with.

I still have hope! It’s riding high!

What happens if it crashes? We’ll see how this Fri.
Right now, I'm holding on. ;)
Why fri? I dunno myself. Couldn't decide between this fri or next fri.
But few nights back i woke up in the middle of the night, with the number 17 and 4 burned into my mind. I wrote it down and went back to sleep. Checked the calendar in the morning and fri is the 17th.
Well... Just following my dreams and seeing were it may lead.
I'm living my dreams. Its not as hard as it may seem!

You may not know what I'm talking about. Its alright.
I just hope I'm not delusional. But everything just seems perfect.

eh.. If you still see me looking stony and all, don't worry!
I'm a brooder. I like to spend quiet moments looking out into windows,sea, staring out to space… etc etc. My friends dun call me BBB for nothing!

PS: Thanks to my 2 closest friends in the whole wide word. Most people have the devil and an angel on their shoulders, giving insights on whether to follow good or bad.
Actually, the devil and angel is not about the battle between good and evil.
Its the battle of self.
Whether you leaned towards or are consistent towards evil, or towards good.
You guys are rationality and emotionality.
You’ve driven me to think about rationality and emotionality.
You’ve helped me to be logical, and consistent rationally and emotionally.