Clarity + cleaning lady

Last night just before I slept, my mind was in a terrible mess.
So much thought all jumbled inside of me.
But it managed to make me sleep early.

And Somehow I woke up at 4 am in the morning with a start. Dammit. I had answers, revelations in my head. I struggled for a pen to write it down.
It has been like this for the past 2 weeks.

Whenever I was so bogged down with thoughts and issues in my head,
i would sleep.
I would go jogging.
I would go cycling.
I would read.
I would watch TV.
I would do everything to get my mind off itself. I wanted to stop myself from getting screwed in the head.
But each time, somehow at the end of the activity. Damn it. Everything would be so clear, certain and sorted out.
I had all the answers in my head. How did this happen?

I'm sure my philosophy buddy would be able to tell me more about this.
haha.
Unconscious mind at work?
Or is it?
I have no idea!

Today was a horrible day for me. Went for my first PPCL theory lesson.
So boring! Hate to go through all the basics again. Almost died.
But I love the instructor!
Was a retired naval officer. The typical boatman.
All the boatmen are alike.
Talk so slowly and like to tell grandfather story.
But i love grandfather stories. ;)

When i came home, the cleaning lady was home.
She is a middle aged housewife that comes every fortnight to help my mom to clean the house.
Very hardworking. Would spend hours scrubbing the floor.
She loved to work at my home coz my mom would be very nice to her.
And she would repay my mom's kindness by working extra hard.

Anyway, She said 'hi' to me and i replied 'hi' (all this in chinese of coz. And yes! I can speak chinese!)
I just asked her whether she ate her dinner and went to my computer.
Then she suddenly said 'thank you' to me.
Huh? WHy thank me?
She didn't answer but asked me if i despised her instead?
I was so puzzled. Why would i despise her? I said a resounding no!
she said thank you once again.
This time I was really curious. I rolled out my chair, looked at her and asked "wei she mo ne?"
She told me the reason why.
I gasped.
She said that whenever she goes to other houses to clean,no one would talk to her.
She was thankful because I talked to her.

Sometimes the simple things that you do make a huge impact on others and it makes a difference.
Yet sometimes the huge things that you do make no impact at all.
Go figure.
:)

Anyway just to quell any misconceptions about my car, I do appreciate it. I appreciate it because of what it represents. I appreciate it because of the good it can do. I appreciate it because we should learn to treasure and appreciate everything that we have, no matter the circumstance.