Today -
I'll be a dandy and I'll be a rover
You'll know who I am by the song that I sing
I'll feast at your table, and I'll sleep in your clover
Who cares what tomorrow shall bring...
Jon counts to 100000: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQBH-LhJuOc
Deconstructing Jon Counts to 100000: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5dYVUZ9yYA&feature=relmfu
Stories from Mr Chiam.
The neighbors have been asking me to do stuff.
HDB and ABC.
Maybe I should.
But who'd benefit?
Is it worth fighting for?
Syria today. Bangkok soon.
Sudan.
A never ending chain/cycle of human suffering/liberty/decadence.
Polarity, antithesis and the divide that multiplies like cancer cells.
Where does one even start?
Can't imagine what it will be like to compile all the information and knowledge that I've been gathering for the past few years.
Wonder if i can dish out something coherent, useful.
Dimidium facti qui coepit habet: sapere aude, incipe ("He who has begun is half done: dare to know!") The iPad will arrive in 2 weeks time. Cold turkey till then.
Can't believe that I actually desired it. Desire, Dispair, Desire... So many monsters... It's opening a can of worms/pandora's box.
What happened to enlightenment? Buddha or Kant? Shit I'm back to square one. Or did I just begin?
There is something in the way which we educate our leaders and pick them from schools
The method of teaching and learning is by rote, that there is a formula to being successful.
Lack of creative and objective view of the world.
This success is reinforced and expected within families of the higher socio-economic backgrounds.
There is little emphasis on ethical and moral thinking, and much focus on the attainment of the individual rather than on pursuit of ideals and excellence.
Students develop a stronger sense of entitlement than responsibility
The reason why a company or corporation like microsoft can have annual turnover higher and in steady growth than the GDP of many countries, is the way the organisation is run, the working conditions and the selection process of its staff.
References from a A full-time community choreographer http://www.ted.com/speakers/dave_meslin.html http://www.thestar.com/news/gta/article/751975--a-mez-merizing-list-of-city-specific-ideas
People do not shun politics because they don't care, are too selfish, too stupid or too lazy to try to make a difference in their community. We live in a world that actively discourages involvement and engagement and puts in obstacles and barriers in our way.
Intentional exclusion as seen in the way leaders pitch and invite involvement of the community in the decision making process of the community. Why doesn't the leadership institutions put in ads in the media to provide updates and invoke response? Case in point in Toronto: Ad by city hall Vs commercial ad by nike.
Misuse of visual and mental environment (public spaces and media): Instead of messages that inspire action, we are bombarded and influenced by profit driven forces that impresses people the things we should want. Advertisements require $$ and social messages cannot afford to keep up.
Lifestyle as depicted by media includes food, entertainment and personal development ads and articles - Mainly participatory and self-indulgent with little emphasis on community involvement! Peoples interest as piqued by media enforces the idea that Politics is a Spectator Sport, just like how we read about lives of celebrities or follow the sports news. No real relationships follow and hence little interest and stake.
Depiction of heros and leaders in pop culture (such as movies matrix, pokemon, harry potter, alice in wonderland, lord of the rings) and even in religion enforces the idea that the hero is one who has a mark on this head, is bestowed upon, comes from prophecy, is extraordinary, is chosen, is special and has magical or special talents. There is also an expectation that the hero is perfect and cannot fail, make big decisions and impacts, and spends his entire life dedicated to the good of the people.
Political Parties are uninspiring and uncreative, relying heavily on focus groups, market research, polling (Information collected from specialists and solicited based on purpose) and hence reactionary at best. Pitching of ideas to people are regurgitative, non or selectively engaging, and all groups argue and say the same thing, feeding mass cynicism.
Important social groups are silenced or drowned by the voices of the masses.
Elections as an enforced proceeding rather than desire is a joke.
Some other ideas
Leadership should be a long term relationship with the people, where it is a 2 way street of constant communication and interaction rather and a single sided action-reaction and an affair during election time.
Ordinary individuals with dreams of making the community better, who are uninvited and are willing to work with others to make their dreams real should step up to be leaders. Leadership should be seen as collective effort, tolerance of imperfections, actions that can be very small, voluntary and are made up of ordinary people - you and I who just want to make things better.
People are not apathetic and apathy is not a personal syndrome. People 'are faced and influenced by a complex web of cultural barriers that reinforces disengagement.'
Finally I managed to catch it after soooo many years!
Wow forgot the effect anime has on me! It seemed that the last one was more than a year ago.
And a cross reference brought Pipa's Song:
The year's at the spring,
And day's at the morn;
Morning's at seven;
The hill-side's dew-pearl'd;
The lark's on the wing;
The snail's on the thorn;
God's in His heaven--
All's right with the world!
Robert Browning.
Most inspiration comes from the bathroom. Why is it that I forget everything the moment I step out of it? If only i could type while showing. Or the focus would distract me?
Or is it savage gardens that blasting, it.
D.R.A.M.A.Distraction. Regression. Adjustment. Maturation. Action
G.U.R.U.Gee, You are you
B.I.B.L.E.Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth
Farnie!
Skin tight leopards
Bochap heads, bleeding of talents.
Children self centered requiring change of mindsets
teachers equally responsible
Japan in ruins, yet holiday makers mourn most
Ruien, LUXurious Shuqi
Falling paint and water sprays
Washing machines and clogged up pipes
IT Fair steps on feet, shove and tussle, racial distinctions
Piteria and heavy metals
I'm going to try something for the first time.
I'm going to rant.
What is rant?
I actually searched for its meaning on Wikipedia
from which I was distracted by dialectic.
This is one of the reasons why I chose to rant! I believe it is one good way to clear my mind. Its getting too wild and out of hand, distractions abound. And yet it is always organising, reviewing and sorting itself out on its own.
Just from these past paragraphs, these thoughts popped into my head. 1. This isn't really a rant, in the sense that it is not focused on anything at all? 2. It eventually will lead to something I suppose, especially when I'm good at taking totally unrelated ideas and putting them into some awkward, yet reasonable conclusion so this post might be a rant after all. 3. But then again it might not lead into a conclusion as I get a) distracted easily, b) tire easily or c) just cannot stay focused for whatever reason (which case a,b could be the reasons) and it has the potential to be a rant but never come into fruitation - a thought experiment 4. It may not be a rant but something more, if I am motivated and focused enough, it'll be easy to turn any rant into a highly established argument backed with evidence, anecdotes, theory and consist of established ideas and thoughts. 5. But then again because there really isn't any constructive purpose nor impact on the world, so it won't happen, plus point 3 has a knack of always happening. Especially more so now. Or has it always been? 6. Quick review. 1.Doubt --> 2. Method --> 3.Hindrances --> 4.Right motivation --> 5. Self doubt.
A summary of what's going on in my life. What goes on in my mind. I'm living only in my mind.
I can't sleep!
This is something new for me.
It's been almost 2 and a half months of good sleep at night where night terror no longer rules.
and I finally get to rest really really well and I get to DREAM every single night!
It is something I long for and failed to do for a long long time.
Science Fiction.
The stuff of dreams.
Of man's REALITY and humanity's ALTERNATE FUTURES.
Of what it is and what it could be and never will be.
Psyched.
Thoughts are getting COHERENT too.
Back to its usual logic at last. At least.
Cooking does help control diets which in turn affects health and mental well-being.
Just loved the chemistry in cooking show thingy.
Now all I lack is the will to exercise.
Easily remedied with hiking and walking.
Which I am tempted to do now in this late hour.
All it takes is WILL.
It is time and I am ready to move on.
Details of the trip are firming up really nicely and all it takes it a dedicated push in dealing and tying up all my administrative matters here and just setting off when it is time.
I just hope that I've not been too prudent in my planning nor extravagant in my approach.
Money.
Money is meant to be spent and can always be earned back.
Too easily in fact that it is such a chore to do so while travelling.
The time will be spent to decide how to make enough when I finally come back.
And how interests should be financed by interests, whether be it investments or working in what you love.
ENOUGH.
Typing for now.
Mind has warmed up.
For the longest time.
Indecisiveness has set in for the longest time.
And it is actually all good.
To be in two minds.
In my case many many minds.
Leading to infinite possibilities.
And it's all probable.
Depending on the first step we take.
Because it is what we WILL do and the path it EVENTUALLY leads
That truly defines the purpose and meaning of it all.
What's next?
PS: The title of this blog is so apt. Or it shall be simply just be. WILL. Titles are good. Summaries.
We work hard all week through, And I spent my nights just loving you But my love was never enough Before too long you were running off
Chorus: You'll never find, no you'll never find Another love like mine No matter how hard you try You'll never find another love like mine
The world is cold hard place So many players looking for that pretty face Maybe someday you'll look back on what we had And this memory will make you feel worse than sad
(Chorus)
And I don't know that ever, I could love again All I know is I gave you all the love that's ever been.
My love for you will never fade Even though you've put me through all this pain When one loves with all his heart He bleeds forever when its torn apart
Watched Contact. Reminders of grandeur and insignificance.
Raynox and Comic Con. Understand why many take to sales and hobbies that make up their life. It's so refreshing and cool. I need to leave this place asap.
Listened to Umbrella, and Across the Universe. Jai guru dei ja ommm. Nothings's going to change my world.
--> How true I wonder? Many teachers take stress related medication. More english teachers take them than any other discipline.
Feels really good. No wonder why people get addicted to them. I finally understand. There is a difference when you mind. And when you feel it.
From wiki - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bromazepam Bromazepam (marketed under several brand names, including Lexotan, Brazepam, Bromaze, and Lectopam)[1] is a benzodiazepine derivative drug, developed in the 1970s.[2][3] It has mainly anxiolytic and at higher doses also sedative, hypnotic and skeletal muscle relaxant properties.[4]
You had my heart And we'll never be worlds apart Maybe in magazines But you'll still be my star Baby cause in the Dark You can see shiny Cars That's when you need me there With you I'll always share Because...
When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Told you we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella eh eh)
These fancy things, Will never come in between You're my entity Here for Infinity When the war has took it's part When the world has dealt it's cards If the hand is hard Together we'll mend your heart Because...
When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Told you we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella
You can run into my Arms That's okay don't be alarmed (Come into Me) (There's no distance in between our love) Gonna let the rain pour I'll be all you need and more ooohh Because...
Mama was queen of the mambo Papa was king of the Congo Deep down in the jungle I started bangin' my first bongo
Every monkey'd like to be In my place instead of me Cause I'm the king of bongo, baby I'm the king of bongo bong
I went to the big town Where there is a lot of sound From the jungle to the city Looking for a bigger crown
So I play my boogie For the people of big city But they don't go crazy When I'm bangin' in my boogie
I'm the "king of the bongo, king of the bongo bong" Hear me when I come King of the bongo, king of the bongo bong
They say that I'm a clown Making too much dirty sound They say there is no place for little monkey in this town Nobody'd like to be in my place instead of me Cause nobody go crazy when I'm bangin' on my boogie
I'm the king of the bongo, king of the bongo bong Hear me when I come "King of the bongo, king of the bongo bong" Bangin' on my bongo all that swing belongs to me
I'm so happy there's nobody in my place instead of me I'm a king without a crown hanging loose in a big town But I'm the king of bongo baby I'm the king of bongo bong King of the bongo, king of the bongo bong
Hear me when I come, baby, king of the bongo, king of the bongo bong
Baby, do you understand me now Sometimes I feel a little mad But don't you know that no one alive Can always be an angel When things go wrong I seem to be bad But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree With a joy that's hard to hide And sometimes it seems that all I have do is worry Then you're bound to see my other side But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy I want you to know That I never mean to take it out on you Life has it's problems and I get my share And that's one thing I never meant to do Because I love you
Oh, Oh baby don't you know I'm human Have thoughts like any other one Sometimes I find myself long regretting Some foolish thing some little simple thing I've done But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Original by Nina Simone: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klyea0oYYrE Popular Version in Kill Bill: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wGFTrDMTyN4
I'm Gonna Make A Change, For Once In My Life It's Gonna Feel Real Good, Gonna Make A Difference Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My Favourite Winter Coat This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind I See The Kids In The Street, With Not Enough To Eat Who Am I, To Be Blind? Pretending Not To See Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard, A Broken Bottle Top And A One Man's Soul They Follow Each Other On The Wind Ya' Know 'Cause They Got Nowhere To Go That's Why I Want You To Know
I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change
I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish Kind Of Love It's Time That I Realize That There Are Some With No Home, Not A Nickel To Loan Could It Be Really Me, Pretending That They're Not Alone?
A Willow Deeply Scarred, Somebody's Broken Heart And A Washed-Out Dream They Follow The Pattern Of The Wind, Ya' See Cause They Got No Place To Be That's Why I'm Starting With Me
I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change.
