I'm an Ass...

I just came back from a trip to Indonesia, crashed back to normality in my job for 2 weeks, then traveled across Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam.
Its good to be home.
Much I have experienced, little I've yet to know, is it enough to understand?

Is there hope for the/a future?

I was grouchy this afternoon. Downright bitchy, condescending and patronising in every way.
Been like that for a while. The whole world owes me a living.

All my life, though pathetic and uninportant in the scheme of things, I've given in to the desires and hopes of those around me. What did I leave for myself except the personal satisfaction of having tried my best to fulfill the expectation of others?
No longer?
I gave in to temptation once again.
I feel happy once again.
But am I contented?
Self-gratification.

Who will fill the void I have dug out myself. Someone come and fulfill me.

No mattter. A speck of dirt on the face of the earth.
My world not yours.
Pessimistic? Skeptic?
Not quite.
Ego-centric, Self-absorbed.
Hmmm.
Solipsistic.
Most probably.

1st word is freedom, 2nd word is wind.
3rd word is Hmmmm.

SERENITAS SALUS LIBERTAS GAUDIUM FELICITAS
Serenity,Salvation, Freedom, Happiness/joy, Blissfulness/happiness.

Liberatae mae.